Wednesday, July 27, 2011

For the love of art

I've been thinking about what I want to write on this blog, more and more every week. I'm not sure if you guys like what I have put up so far but I do want to be influential in your lives in a positive way. To me that means I should be open and honest.  I think that's the best way to go.

I honestly feel like a failed writer. I have sheets and sheets of paper written with my words and a couple I made into a book. But unfortunately I feel like it doesn't matter. I can't help thinking, how many people have really read this book I have written? The numbers of books I have sold is very low. But at the same time I believe that the number doesn't matter. Why? Because when people do read it, they are captured by the story I have written. And that makes me happy. So I'm thinking that I am more concerned that people are not out there enjoying my book because they don't have it. Do I give it out for free? If I could afford it, I think I would. But I am not.

The money from My ____ Life is going to go to my college loans. That debt will probably haunt me for the rest of my life. SO  I might as well use my book to help me out. But as of right now, I think I may have  about $30.00- $40.00 in paypal besides from book signings. Haha.

Art is one of those things that people love but only look at as a luxury. Television, movies, paintings, music, … books. And we loooovvvee instant gratification. So if I had to choose between a McChicken sandwich of saving the buck for art… I'd be rubbing my belly in satisfaction. Yum.

Why am I writing this? I have no idea, but I felt compelled to write it.

I'd like my friends and family to read my work and be in awe. Why? Cause I am every time I do. I'm amazed that I was able to coordinate words to make me feel an emotion again and again. It's astounding. 

Read. Read. Read everyone.

I'm going to be  looking into helping out Girls Write Now somehow. Ooo that rhymed. Haha.  I just emailed them to see if I can do something other than mentor. Maybe go and speak to some cool teen girls. I'll keep you updated.