Sunday, November 13, 2011

I don't know how she does it in Morning Glory....

I am burnt out. 

For those who don't know what that means, you are lucky. It's the feeling you get when you've worked for too long, too hard and without enough time to rejuvenate. This is currently me. 

I work at a college campus, intern at a graphic design haus, have a book out, freelance publicizing, owner of a store that just added a new location, I'm a daughter of a divorcing (ugh) couple, and about to finish up my Masters in 6 more weeks. AND that is just the brief summary of my life. 

Sometimes I feel defeated and want to just carry on normally like I see other people. Having boy troubles, being hung over... you know, being mediocre. But then I have entertainment to help me push on and aim for greatness and not settle for a meek lifestyle. 

A week ago is when I started to feel unmotivated and frustrated with myself. I even forgot a deadline! I NEVER do that. And I just knew what no woman has realized before. "I'm not perfect" lol. Oh wait, this is a known fact for humanity, but not so much in "womanity". Us women always feel as if we are supposed to be able to carry the world on our shoulders and still be able to stand as if it's not heavy. 

I am stopping this thinking for myself.  I can not do everything. And should not have to do everything. I am growing everyday as a delegate of responsibilities. This is what will relieve my burning out a bit. 

I don't know how she does it- I watched this movie a week ago, and I just fell in love and cracked up. {Well maybe not in love but you know what I mean. } I connected with the lead and accepted that one day, this very well may be me. Or... actually, I accepted that it will be me. And I'm okay with that. In the end of the day, she was successful not only at work but in life. She had a family she adored and adored her back; and a job that respected her. Being on top as a woman, it's pleasurable but sometimes difficult (haha). But you always  need to be aware of what's going on around you. 

Morning Glory- Meanwhile this morning, I watched this movie and felt equally encourage by it. More so because this is me currently. Not dating, career driven and focused on my dream. But even when things got hard, her work ethic was what had her stand out from the rest. THIS is what I want to be known for, and THIS is why I think I am so fulfilled when it comes to my work experiences. I dedicate my whole being into everything I do, which is also probably why at least once a year I get burnt out. But you pick yourself back up again. You don't cry for too long and you don't lay defeated for long either. 

Maybe every week I'll try watching another strong woman push on and be driven in a film. Any suggestions?

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